Monday, August 11, 2008

my city by the bay

we. have. arrived!

after a short stint of 15 hours in the 16-foot moving truck (pictures to come soon), eric and i finally arrived at our new home in cambridge.

the week leading up to the move had left us both exhausted, ready to get to a final resting place, but unsure to admit that statement out loud, knowing that the day was approaching us all too quickly. we had family and friends that helped load up our truck (a special thank you to allison, george and the beale parents) and departed, hands waving in the southern summer air, with a tear-full goodbye.

leaving raleigh was hard - the two homes i had there. as i helped eric clean his place i thought of the two and 1/2 years he and i spent in that little two-bedroom. all the dinners, laughing, secrets, emotions, fears, excitement, we shared. i remember when he first took me to that empty place and told me it was his new apartment. as i finished cleaning each room, i closed the door. standing in his small hallway, i looked at the four doors closed in front of me and prayed for the faith to know, and trust, that the one door behind me, leading out of that apartment on o'berry, into the truck and up north, was going to open up a plethora of new doors. i cried before we pulled away from that place. eric put it best when he said that was the place that over all our talks, dinners, movie nights and champagne sundays, we fell in love.

my apt with my sister was even harder. mostly because she was still there. i had a restless sleep, my tossing and turning seemed to echo through the empty walls from my side of the house. it wasn't about leaving that apt. it was about leaving alli. knowing that things like our love for bogo, cats, rainy days, baths and each other would stay the same while life, indefinitly, would continue to change. but allison, she is my heart. therefore, she is always with me, in me. she is fabulous and will be fine - me on the other hand....

i'm learning to actually use public transportation - not just be an advocate for it and i'm trying to navigate my way around a city and society that i'm unfamiliar with, all while settling in with a neurotic cat and a male human being (hehe). but...all things in time. and these feelings of loneliness, uncertainty, sadness, these too will surely pass.

more to come with pictures of the place!

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