Friday, March 22, 2013

> love

this makes me think of e. regardless of the few encounters we had leading up to our official meet-cute at a unc game, e and i were not in love from the get-go. BUT that man kept coming up - either through conversations with my sister or through random run-ins and i knew he was supposed to be in my life.
i didn't know how or why, but i just knew.

for years to come and even now, but specifically for those first few years where dating can be hard and confusing and bumpy at times because it isn't perfect and people aren't perfect, this realization is what kept my perspective steady. i knew e was the one for me and that i was the one for him. i knew we would build something strong together, an unbreakable bond that certainly holds love but also something else, something i don't even know a word for. but whatever that is, that's what was there between us when i first saw e. love is easy and can be anxious. but this other thing, is patient but persistent, consistent and calming.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

right in time.

e and i have been talking about a lot of different things lately. family, home, work. we always do this, but there's more seriousness in our conversations now, with our realization that we are where we are in life and our want to begin to get where we'd like to go. it's scary.

maybe that doesn't make sense to anyone else reading this. and it doesn't make sense to me either most of the time. but something e keeps saying is that we just have to jump off a cliff and as long as we do that together, that's what it's about. he keeps telling me we have to take a leap of faith. i found this little wisdom gem today on another blog. i call it a subtle sign that some how, some way, in the midst of all my confusion, even though i can't see clearly at times,  i'm still on the right path. and i needed that.