Tuesday, April 21, 2009

running on empty

a little more than a month of no writing and those who know me well would think that i might have some built up emotional tension in my brain. however, the truth is, i've been running my own 26.2 mile(stones). between website updates, media calls, event show-flows and taking in all the general excitement of the marathon, my down time, if you can call it that, has been filled with finalizing details for bridesmaid dresses, invites, portraits, bridal showers and the big b-party. as i walked home last night in the later hours of the evening - but early enough to still have a bit of light (i've been waking up before the sun and going to bed way after the sun sets for about a week...) i looked up and my eyes were greeted with green.

somewhere, in between the cold january nights, thigh-deep in snow, with doubts of actually making it through the winter, and that very second, it had become spring. not just spring - but late april. and i couldn't help but realize - as i often do - that this was just the way it was going to be now. life was just going to move fast. and immediately i was thankful for my ability to always immerse myself to the extreme in every moment.

it's still cold here. and rainy right now. but the common areas are green, beautiful trees are beginning to bloom and bright flowers are rising up from the ground - sure signs that spring is here and reminding me that all things, in time, do pass. that includes winter.

that includes loneliness. and, that includes life.

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